Feelings

Today I am feeling a bit "unstable". Not my mind, but my guts, as if I am waiting for something to happen. I have been upset about our computer situation; a virus or viruses totally destroyed our home computer; my husband's nephew fixed it, and the computer fell off the car seat in transport back to our house. It is no longer working and I must buy a new computer; Justin needs it for school. He has been coming into my job to use a spare computer to get his assignments completed, but he cannot continue this practice. I am a fanatic about my finances, keeping them low and within reason; this unexpected expense is just doing me in - I have car insurance due in two weeks and a couple of banquet ticket to buy, church related, and we must attend. Christmas is coming and even though it is not a big deal because we are going low key this year, I still like to have "my ducks in a row" when it comes to money, early childhood memories and such.

My sister is not well and we are just awaiting news from her doctor as to what is happening to her body; she feels the news is not good and I am trying to be an encourager to her, but I am still concerned; she is there without me and we live too far from each other for me to just drop everything and go to her just now. I will do my best to be there when she needs me, but she needs me now, just to hold her hand and to give her a big hug. I love my sister so much and miss her even more; we talk to each other every day, and I don't know what I would do without her.

I know I have to put ALL my faith and trust in the Lord to see me through. I realize I am better off than a lot of people and for that I am thankful, but debt frightens me; situations I have no control over make me uneasy. LORD, I GIVE YOU ALL MY CONCERNS THIS DAY AND FORGIVE ME FOR NOT COMING TO YOU FIRST. YOU TAKE CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING I AM FACING TODAY, AND EVERYDAY. I LOVE YOU LORD. SOLI DEO GLORIA....

Aunt Laura

My Aunt Laura, sister of my mother, died this past weekend of a massive stroke. Her death was sudden, so we were all taken aback by this news. I was just so devastated. I immediately made plans to go home for her funeral. It took some planning and work, but we went. This is the first time in 6 years that all my siblings were in the same city at the same time; we took a family picture. It was good to see family members that I have not seen in a while, which is what usually happens when someone dies.

Aunt Laura had a beautiful homegoing service; that is the difference when you have the Lord in your life; this is the moment you live for. She lived as the Bible says we should. I was grateful for the things she did for me in my life; she let me come and stay at her house in Youngstown, Ohio every year, because her daughter and I were close; she taught me how to crochet and sew; she taught me how to be thrifty, use coupons, how to save money, to never run out of toilet paper or soap; how to make a slammin' beef roast; she always had Reader's Digest at her house and she let me read to my hearts content; food was always plentiful at her house (I had 5 brothers and food disappeared in seconds in our house); she loved her husband the way a husband should be loved, and he loved her the same way. They were ALWAYS together. He even still opened the car door for her. I will miss her as much as I miss my mom, and when I was home, I visited my mom's grave to let her know, she was having a family reunion up there the same as we were having down here. I love you Aunt Laura and will always remember the things you taught me. Give my mom a kiss.