Cleansing my Soul

I don't know who reads my blog, other than Jessie, but I will still let you know this post comes with a warning:

*****My blog is my place to vent, rant, and just let loose without judgment from anyone. I have not sinned, I am a thankful, blessed woman of God, but there are times when we just need to say what is on our minds....this is what this blog is about for me today.****

We can be just going along in life and reach a point where you are tired of always doing and saying the right thing; just tired of being nice to rude, belligerent people....TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS.

I don't want to be nice; I don't want to smile at mean people; I don't want to be calm and soothing on the phone. When people call and get ugly with me because I cannot accommodate them, I want to yell back, "It is not my fault you chose to ignore your teeth for 10 years then decided it was my problem because they are falling out of your head and I should make an appointment this afternoon and fix them immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!" No one wants to take responsibility for their bad choices or decisions. It is always someone else's fault. I don't want to hear complaints; everyone is having a hard time....that is what "difficult economic times" mean; it is not just you, it affects everyone.

I want to hit stupid (yes, I said "Stupid") people....I had a teacher, of all people, ask me if Room 274 was on the second floor----I wanted to say, "No, it is on the 74th floor, the 2nd room, that is why it is numbered like that." I am the frontline person on my job...I take pride in garnering information so that I can answer any question asked of me....SO I DON'T NEED SNOBBY TEACHERS COMING TO ME TALKING TO ME AS IF I AM A 1850'S BACKWOODS SLAVE FROM MISSISSIPPI JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE A DENTAL EDUCATION AND I DON'T....I have an education, but I will never let people know exactly what I know....and I know a lot. I do a good job; I am not saying this being conceited....my boss tells me on a regular basis that I am doing a good job and I am irreplaceable....so get your nose out of the air, teach these kids like you are being paid to do, and get out of my face.

I cannot believe I am asked time and again, "Do you file charts by the first name or last name?". Go figure....kids are being graduated from high school and do not know their alphabet...yet they are in college, getting ready to go out into the real world and work on humans. I have met some 4 year olds that know their alphabet better than some students.

I am not finished ranting, but I feel better already....so with that said, "God forgive me for feeling this way...I know you know our hearts, and I want to have a pure heart, to treat people right and to be found worthy in your sight. Forgive me for having these feelings, and help me to let my light shine in the midst of the darkness I face daily. Lord I love you and praise your holy name." There, all done.

Springlike day

Today is so beautiful outside....60 degree temps and I am indoors. But I am not complaining because if we don't get anymore snow...then WINTER IS OVER FOR US. This is the best winter we have had in Canada in a long time...we did not have any measurable snow this year, while everyone else had mountains of snow elsewhere. The only thing I dread about the weather getting better is the ongoing battle with the neighbor boys with the basketball net situated between the shared driveway and the fact that the ball keeps bouncing off my van. NOT GOOD.

I wish I was going away for March break...my finances are a little low since I am not getting compensated for cleaning the church at the moment, so I have to stay put...but one thing I have learned...the Lord is blessing; He has provided us with just enough to meet our immediate needs, and for that I am grateful.

Even though our cruise is 15 months away, I am so excited....it will be here before I know it. I am looking for luggage for the three of us. I don't want to take too much; I am going to do my best to pack light. I think the only thing I do want is new sandals and a new bathing suit. I have enough capris and tops and skirts to take; I am only taking one evening dress; if I need it for two occasions I will wear the same dress. I am believing Errol will be fine and not need medical attention while there. i will get travel insurance for him. This will be a lifelong dream come true.

I am looking forward to the weekend; I might start some of my yard work - cleaning up debris, clipping my bushes etc. I love the weekend...Justin can take the car to work; I want to sleep in; then we get our taxes done. I'll visit my dad since I will be just around the corner from him. I want to make a good dinner for Sunday - maybe sweet potato pie for dessert.

It is March....is winter over, because we did not have one.

I cannot believe this is March already...I just heard on the news that the time will change in less than two weeks.....I AM NOT READY!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this time change most of all because it is so hard to adjust to one less hour of sleep. I am already sleep deprived.(so I think) I will enjoy the longer days, more sunshine, sitting on the porch at night - but my sleep is very important to me.

We did not have much of a winter this year...I am happy but I was really hoping for a couple snow days - everyone got a few but us, and we live in CANADA. Pennsylvania was almost wiped off the map with all the snow they had...the pictures were beautiful. I don't mind a lot of snow in Windsor because the terrain is so flat - it is a joy to drive in the snow here. We still have time to have a snow storm....I remember March 20, 1996.....14 inches with rain. That was no fun.

I am still in need of a serious break....from everything for a few days. I need pampering....to be fed, allowed to sleep as long as I want..not to have to answer the phone, to be able to watch movies or read uninterrupted....to not have to do anything for anyone...oh, what a dream. One day...!!!!!

I have been breaking out in hives every morning for the past two weeks and I cannot pinpoint the cause...it is so uncomfortable....I went to the campus nurse, she gave me some medicine and it helped with the itch, so I have to get some more. I have eliminated Crystal Light (dye), body wash (allergic reaction) and my newest vitamin to see if that helps. I hope so. later, peace out...it is getting busy here and I cannot concentrate anymore.