Mixed Bag

Today is going to be a mixed bag of emotions and thoughts. I am tired; my husband has been sick since January 8th and is on the road to recovery, but we have had our moments. I am the primary caregiver, with Justin assisting here and there, but he does not have the patience for that job. I have had to wake up in the middle of the night for various reasons to assist my husband, then go to work in the morning....I just want to sleep in for a long while. I will rest better when he is feeling better.

I am seriously considering not being the church janitor anymore because I am tired of planning my life around having to clean the church. New Year, New Me...I am giving it a try at living on my present income, without the added bonus from the church, not that it was that much, but it made things a bit easier when I was financially challenged. I like to have days, especially in the winter, when I do not have to leave the house. I am too wrapped up in what is happening at church; I feel the need to be in the know about everything; now I don't care to know - ignorance is bliss. By removing myself from some jobs, like financial bookkeeping, janitorial duties and such, I can just be a bench warmer, which is what I want at this present time.

My great niece and her fiance are getting married tonight...they are so in love it is refreshing...counting down the days until the wedding on Facebook, sending out sweet messages, etc. How nice to be just starting out on your new life together...Oh the adventures they will have!!!!! They will be living in the cold Yukon Territory....I have not been to a family wedding in a while so I am looking forward to this grand event. Justin is playing at the wedding and during the reception...I also am looking forward to the meal. Nice not to have to cook. I wish my husband was feeling better so that I can really enjoy myself; as it is I may attend for a while then go back home to be with him.

I have not enjoyed 2010 yet....it came in with a bang!!!!! Problems, issues, illness, more problems, upheaval, and that was just the first week. All these things are a part of life and when everything has been good for a while, it can throw you for a loop. I will be ecstatic when I can see the light at the end of this tunnel....I cannot complain really because every time I think about the earthquake in Haiti, I say "there but for the grace of God go I and my family". God bless those people and those poor children left without parents.

I have said enough today, but have not really touched the surface of my feelings...it is hard for me to put them into words today. I just need a big hug, a cup of hot chocolate and for someone to tell me it is going to be alright....then they will get to work and make it alright. Dear God, I know you've got my back, I feel the hug. All my faith and trust is in YOU...I love you Lord.

Happy New year

Okay, it has been a while since I have blogged, but life has been busy....getting ready for the holidays and such. We had our Advent Tea at the beginning of the month, the choir concert (very nice); my Christmas party with work friends, the Kid's Bazaar at church; I took a friend shopping; our Quilting Class party; the Union Social - I won two prizes; the Kersey Family Christmas party - attendance could have been a lot better - for a family that large, 35 people in attendance is sad; Justin's production at the Cleary; my great niece's funeral - rest in God's arms Shana; Staff Brunch at work; baking cookies with Muriel, church family dinner, friends over on Christmas eve, then leaving for Pennsylvania Christmas day....and that was just December!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had to deal with some drama on Christmas Eve, but you know, I don't allow drama to control my life....I dealt with it, and I will just end it by saying some people need hobbies or jobs so they will not have time to be peace breakers or disturbers. Don't bring that mess to me, because there is no room in my life for junk.

I had a great time with my family in PA...I love my family and enjoy being with them. The time went too fast and it was time to come back to Windsor. I am looking for bigger and better things in 2010....I want health and prosperity for my family, salvation for my unsaved loved ones and friends, more of Jesus for me, peace, grace and mercy for everyone, and to be the best person I can be to everyone I meet. I am thankful for my dear husband, my loving, handsome son, my father, brothers and sister, friends, aunts, uncles, cousins, beautiful nieces and handsome nephews, my job, coworkers, my church and church family, my pastor and his wife, my job, my home, the ability to pay my bills, for my van, for the love of God, for salvation, for my health, for God's hand on my life, and for His faithfulness to me and mine. I am grateful for the loving, Godly mother and grandmother who raised me and left me with qualities that have shaped my life; I am thankful for a mind stayed on Jesus, and peace of mind...for the common sense not to fall under Satan's spell; I love you Lord, and I lift up my voice to worship you, oh my soul rejoice....take joy my King in what you hear and let it be a sweet sound in your ear. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. In Christ's service I remain....forever.