Feelings

Today I am feeling a bit "unstable". Not my mind, but my guts, as if I am waiting for something to happen. I have been upset about our computer situation; a virus or viruses totally destroyed our home computer; my husband's nephew fixed it, and the computer fell off the car seat in transport back to our house. It is no longer working and I must buy a new computer; Justin needs it for school. He has been coming into my job to use a spare computer to get his assignments completed, but he cannot continue this practice. I am a fanatic about my finances, keeping them low and within reason; this unexpected expense is just doing me in - I have car insurance due in two weeks and a couple of banquet ticket to buy, church related, and we must attend. Christmas is coming and even though it is not a big deal because we are going low key this year, I still like to have "my ducks in a row" when it comes to money, early childhood memories and such.

My sister is not well and we are just awaiting news from her doctor as to what is happening to her body; she feels the news is not good and I am trying to be an encourager to her, but I am still concerned; she is there without me and we live too far from each other for me to just drop everything and go to her just now. I will do my best to be there when she needs me, but she needs me now, just to hold her hand and to give her a big hug. I love my sister so much and miss her even more; we talk to each other every day, and I don't know what I would do without her.

I know I have to put ALL my faith and trust in the Lord to see me through. I realize I am better off than a lot of people and for that I am thankful, but debt frightens me; situations I have no control over make me uneasy. LORD, I GIVE YOU ALL MY CONCERNS THIS DAY AND FORGIVE ME FOR NOT COMING TO YOU FIRST. YOU TAKE CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING I AM FACING TODAY, AND EVERYDAY. I LOVE YOU LORD. SOLI DEO GLORIA....