Today is going to be a mixed bag of emotions and thoughts. I am tired; my husband has been sick since January 8th and is on the road to recovery, but we have had our moments. I am the primary caregiver, with Justin assisting here and there, but he does not have the patience for that job. I have had to wake up in the middle of the night for various reasons to assist my husband, then go to work in the morning....I just want to sleep in for a long while. I will rest better when he is feeling better.
I am seriously considering not being the church janitor anymore because I am tired of planning my life around having to clean the church. New Year, New Me...I am giving it a try at living on my present income, without the added bonus from the church, not that it was that much, but it made things a bit easier when I was financially challenged. I like to have days, especially in the winter, when I do not have to leave the house. I am too wrapped up in what is happening at church; I feel the need to be in the know about everything; now I don't care to know - ignorance is bliss. By removing myself from some jobs, like financial bookkeeping, janitorial duties and such, I can just be a bench warmer, which is what I want at this present time.
My great niece and her fiance are getting married tonight...they are so in love it is refreshing...counting down the days until the wedding on Facebook, sending out sweet messages, etc. How nice to be just starting out on your new life together...Oh the adventures they will have!!!!! They will be living in the cold Yukon Territory....I have not been to a family wedding in a while so I am looking forward to this grand event. Justin is playing at the wedding and during the reception...I also am looking forward to the meal. Nice not to have to cook. I wish my husband was feeling better so that I can really enjoy myself; as it is I may attend for a while then go back home to be with him.
I have not enjoyed 2010 yet....it came in with a bang!!!!! Problems, issues, illness, more problems, upheaval, and that was just the first week. All these things are a part of life and when everything has been good for a while, it can throw you for a loop. I will be ecstatic when I can see the light at the end of this tunnel....I cannot complain really because every time I think about the earthquake in Haiti, I say "there but for the grace of God go I and my family". God bless those people and those poor children left without parents.
I have said enough today, but have not really touched the surface of my feelings...it is hard for me to put them into words today. I just need a big hug, a cup of hot chocolate and for someone to tell me it is going to be alright....then they will get to work and make it alright. Dear God, I know you've got my back, I feel the hug. All my faith and trust is in YOU...I love you Lord.
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3 comments:
Aunt Footie, God will not give you more than you can bear. Pastor preached a great message today about knowing that our hard times are ordained by God to teach us something and if we know that it is ordained by God, we also know we can get through it. I am sure it is really hard on you working full time, working at church and taking care of Uncle Errol. Just be encouraged and know it won't always be this way. God will strengthen you and lead you. Maybe, lightening your load a little bit will help (janitor job). Know that we are in Pennsylvania praying for you! If we were closer, we'd give you a big hug. WE LOVE YOU and it will all definately be ALRIGHT!
Love ya!
and your nephew Jeremiah said to tell you that he loves your hats!
I love jeremiah too.
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